The Desire For Motherhood

By Carolyn Dale Newell

Now when Rachel saw that she bore Jacob no children, Rachel envied her sister, and said to Jacob, “Give me children, or else I die!”
Gen. 30:1 (NKJV)

As I read this verse, my mind raced back thirty years ago. I could relate to Rachel. I felt her pain. I had an overwhelming desire to have a child, but my body was uncooperative. I remember wandering into the baby section of the department stores only to leave feeling frustrated.

There were the monthly visits to the doctor hoping to find that this time the fertility drugs had worked. Each month, I waited for the results, but for five months, the answer was negative. Then came that glorious day when the test was positive. I was pregnant!

Little did I know that I would face an even greater sorrow eighteen years later when my daughter wanted distance from us – great distance. Not only did she leave home, but she made it impossible for us to contact her. My heart broke into a million pieces. For eight years, I felt that same emptiness as a mother. I hated Mother’s Day. I cannot describe the pain that you feel when your child rejects you.

Once again, God remembered me just like He remembered Rachel (v. 22). My daughter came back into our lives, and it was amazing.

I cannot tell you that I know the pain of never having children. I cannot tell you that your wayward son or daughter will return home, but I can tell you that God is faithful. I know that His timing is perfect, and I know that His grace will bring you through the greatest of sorrows.

I don’t know your situation today, but if you are a momma without your child, I am praying for you. God hears the prayers of His children. God loves you, and He is still doing miracles.

Heavenly Father,
I lift up the name of everyone reading this today. You know their need, whether it is the couple who desperately wants children or the cry of a momma who is not with her child for any reason. Comfort the suffering. God, I pray You will touch these women who want children. I pray that you will reach the sons and daughters who need to take that first step home. Thank You for what You are going to do in the name of Jesus. Amen.

Read these comforting verses: Rom. 8:28, 2 Cor. 12:9, Phil. 4:6, 7, 13, Heb. 13:5.

Trust God for a miracle, and most importantly, trust Him to bring you through these difficult times with His amazing grace.

Copyright 2015 Carolyn Dale Newell.


11 thoughts on “The Desire For Motherhood

  1. Raising Samuels

    God always has a plan and I’m glad that this has you with your daughter again. It is not easy to be away from people we care about, especially our own children. This story has given me tremendous hope; thank you for sharing it. #bloggercaregroup

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  2. Cheryl

    I have met some women recently who have the ache of broken relationships with their children. Your words are so encouraging.
    And while I am not in the midst of that particular situation, your words of God’s faithfulness is a comfort to me.

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  3. Tai East

    Carolyn, bless you, my dear for writing this! So touching and so beautiful! I just love how our GOD provides and restores! And I love your heart for wanting to restore hope in the hearts of other Mothers. I so value, admire, and favor you! Infinite blessings to you, Love! 🙂

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    1. cnewell2014 Post author

      Sweet Tai, thank you for your comment. This gives me the opportunity to tell you how much I appreciated your blog yesterday. It was the very last thing I did last night. Therefore, I didn’t make it to the comment area. I just wanted to shout “Amen” as I read it. Love ya!

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    2. cnewell2014 Post author

      Sweet Tai, thank you for your comment. God is good! Your blog was the last thing I read last night, and I wanted to shout “Amen”. I was going to leave a comment this morning, so I’ll tell you now – you radiate God’s light into the world. Love ya!

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