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A Bundle to Love



By Carolyn Dale Newell

Now when Rachel saw that she bore Jacob no Children, Rachel envied her sister, and said to Jacob, “Give me children, or else I die!”

Genesis 30:1 NKJV

At age twenty-three, that longing hit me. You know the one. The desire to have a child is strong by nature. Some women elect not to have families, but for the rest of us, a life without a child is empty. The yearning is so strong because it is God’s plan for us to be fruitful and multiply. When that overwhelming longing hits, nothing will satisfy it, but a little bundle of joy.

Discovering that becoming pregnant is difficult can create despair. I went from taking my temperature every morning and faithfully keeping the charts through all the infertility tests. Each month, I eagerly awaited the good news, and each month, the doctor started the process over again. Pills to jump-start my cycle, and fertility drugs followed. For six months, that was the routine.

Strolling through the baby department, gazing at the adorable outfits, the tiny sleepers, and all the baby gear was thrilling. So soft and so cute! Then my eyes sprang a leak, and I made a quick exit, leaving the store to cry.

I prayed nightly for a child. It could be a boy or a girl. It did not matter. I just wanted a bundle to love. I wasn’t attending church. Wasn’t reading my Bible. Wasn’t living for God. The truth was that I did not know Jesus Christ personally at that time. I prayed, unaware that my prayers never hit the ceiling. After I was genuinely born again, I learned that God does not hear the prayer of a sinner, except the genuine request for salvation. Once I was gloriously saved, I struggled to accept the fact that God did not hear those prayers because He answered them. Yes, I finally became pregnant, but it had nothing to do with my prayers. It was part of God’s amazing plan.

Scripture is filled with barren women whose wombs eventually carried babies. Sarah miraculously bore Isaac in her old age (Gen. 18:10-11). Rachael’s need for children was stronger than life itself (Gen. 30:1). Not only did Hannah weep for a child, she endured the biting words of Elkanah’s other wife, who became pregnant easily (1 sam. 1-20). God blessed all these women with newborns, but that may not always be the case.

Your answer to prayer may come in the form of adoption or a foster child. Some couples remain childless. We can’t wrap our minds around the fact that potentially good parents cannot conceive, but many unmarried women have multiple births. It is not for us to understand, just trust God.

That is much easier said than done. I wish I had the answers you long for, but Jesus is the answer. He is the source of life, the master of miracles, and the carpenter for the broken.

  • This is an excerpt from the chapter “When a Mom Hurts” in my memoir, “Believe: A Journey of Faith” which I am currently writing.

Heavenly Father, we lift up barren wombs to You today. Throughout Scripture, You brought life to many who were dead: Sarah, Rachel, and Elizabeth, just to name a few. Please open the doors to give mommas and daddies a bundle to love. Until then, or if it is not Your plan, shower them with amazing grace. We thank You and we trust You. In Jesus’ name, amen.


Read Genesis 30:1-24.


Infertility is difficult year-round. Don’t allow a national holiday to overpower you with despair. Pray, guarding your heart through Mother’s Day and throughout the year. There is always hope with Jesus. The impossible becomes possible in prayer.

Copyright 2017 Carolyn Dale Newell.

Incense Rising Online Stud 11

Welcome to another week of study through Incense Rising: 60 Days to Powerful Prayer (https://amountainoffaith.com/carolyns-books/ ). We hear sermons about Hannah around Mother’s Day, but today, we dive into 1 Samuel chapter 1 to become better acquainted with her.

Sorrow has filled Hannah’s heart. Despite her husband’s attempts to be extremely good to her (1 Sam. 1:8). The Elkannah family was dysfunctional. God was displeased with Elkannah marrying two wives. We learn early in Scripture that God intended marriage to be between one man and one woman at one time.

Hannah shared her husband with a woman who bore babies with ease, but Hannah was barren. She also rubbed Hannah’s nose in her ability to bear children. We all have dealt with that personality type at some time. Many of you ladies understand Hannah’s pain. The longing to be a mother loses hope with each passing month, but there is always hope with God.

What phrases in verse 10 describe Hannah’s emotional state?

Here is something refreshing we may miss as we read. Notice the providence of God in this story. At the moment, Hannah is praying, Eli is present. Not only is he there, but his attention is drawn to Hannah. Providence means God arranges a series of events to bring about His desired outcome. Miracles are usually a single supernatural event, but providence can encompass many steps.

Can you recall a miracle in your lifetime? When have you witnessed God’s providence at work?

Pay attention to Hannah’s boldness as she prays (v. 11). She not only states the fact that God will give her a child, but a male child. She vows to return her son to the Lord.

In verse 16, Hannah told Eli she had complained to God. Is complaining sinful? What about complaining to God? Does Eli’s reply in verse 17 shed any light on your thoughts? When a complaint is given to God, He can do something about it. When we share our grievances with people, they usually have no power to change the situation. Let’s look at a hypothetical situation when we can make a complaint to a store clerk and get action. You return an item to the store. Your reason for the return, your complaint, is the product’s unsatisfactory performance. The clerk gives you a refund. Does that look different than keeping the product and complaining to anyone who will listen about its unsatisfactory performance?

The Israelites were condemned for their murmuring. However, they did not take it to the Lord (Ex. 15:24, Ex. 17:3)

Job said his complaint was just (Job 6:1).

Many verses in the New Testament command us not to complain (1 Cor. 10:10, Phil. 2:14, Col. 3:13, Jude 1:16). Psalm 142:1-2 gives us an example as to how we might pray, complaining to God:

I cry out to the Lord with my voice;

With my voice to the Lord I make my supplication.

I pour out my complaint before Him;

I declare before Him my trouble.

Do you see any differences between making a complaint to God rather than running a complaint campaign?

What complaints have you taken to God recently?

What have you complained about to others?

What changes do you anticipate to make in the future?

Lord, how can we complain to You when our first thoughts bring our minds to all You have blessed us with? Many of us have complaints today. We are in pain. Physical pain. Emotional pain. Many are at the end of their rope. Help us because Only You can. In Jesus’ name, amen.